What I feel inside of me to be true is the exact opposite of what is practiced in our society.
In our culture we’re all conditioned to not look for answers within ourselves. Instead, we listen to institutions, doctors, spiritual teachers, healers, the news and the latest magazine gossip. We’re all trained to give away our power to authorities or other people around us instead of tuning within and asking ourselves:
What I’ve come to know is that I am here to express myself creatively, to be here fully and to enjoy my life, but this has been conditioned out of me - out of everybody - from a very early age.
In school I followed the rules of my teachers expecting them to know all the answers. At home I followed the rules of my parents thinking they must have it all figured out. Just to find out after so many years of blind obedience that a lot of the things I've learned from society and my culture were wrong.
I have been told that I should not do what brings me joy, but instead follow what everybody else is doing.
I have been told that I can’t heal myself, but that I need doctors and drugs to make me feel good.
I have been told that it’s selfish to love myself.
I have been told that in order to be loved I have to please other people and make them happy.
I have been told that you have better chances to have a successful career and earn good money if you go to University and cramp your brain full of stuff that you’re not interested in.
I have also been told that you have to achieve certain things (a degree, a social status, a certain amount of money, a certain look) to be respected and loveable.
So, like a blind person, I trusted the pieces of advice from everybody else around me while constantly ignoring my inner voice, my true essence and my true nature.
This journey of looking outside of myself for answers is coming to an end and I’m committed to trust my inner voice that has been guiding me since I was a little kid. I’ve always felt like a misfit, alone and misunderstood because my core values and my truth were in conflict with the values of the majority of people I met. I suffered from a deep loneliness and always felt that I needed to struggle and swim against the current only to find out that my purpose is to be myself.
In the past, every time I let other people decide what’s good for me instead of trusting my own heart, I suffered. Every time I decided to listen to what love wants me to do, I came closer to my true essence and experienced joy in living.
What if I told you that you don’t need anybody to help you make decisions in your life, but that you have every answer for every question already inside of you? You just need to turn within and listen to the silence of your being. Go for a walk in nature, sit under a tree, allow yourself to just be, quiet your mind and the answers will come - no matter what problem you’re facing right now.
If you feel that your life lacks aliveness and you’re confused with all the conflicting messages you get from people, doctors, self-help books etc., go within and ask:
What would I do if I weren’t afraid?
What would I be doing right now if I did love myself?
Not embracing who you are in the core of your being can cause you to feel a lack of enthusiasm for your life. It can make you feel depressed and even cause physical pains. All of these forms of suffering are not there to torture you; they’re a chance to make you more aware of what’s going on inside of you. Your body is communicating with you through your pain (physical and emotional) and it wants to help you become aware of who you truly are. It wants to help you realize in which areas of your life you’re not fully accepting yourself.
Trust your feelings and trust your gut and see yourself as the most valuable source of knowledge to turn to when you’re in need for answers.
Sending you tons of love,
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