I'm definitely not an angel.
I have an anger management problem.
I get angry a lot and I don't really know where this is coming from. Probably from my childhood and from my parents and from all my past lives, where I probably went through a lot of crap.
I guess I need therapy, but at the same time I don't really believe in therapy. Not like an old fashioned person would say:
"Therapy? I don't need therapy. I'm alright. Everything is fine with me."
No, more like:
"I don't need to tell a person about my past and throw it up a million times, because it's over. Of course I'm messed up, not more or less than anybody else, but the solution for my problem won't come if I keep reliving my past."
O.k. here are a few things which make me mad sometimes. For example:
and so on...
And of course being mad is on my list too, so I'm actually getting angry about me getting angry, which makes no sense at all.
And although I know that it doesn't make sense, I still get mad, I still blame other people for not making me feel good, for not behaving in a particular way or for doing things which make no sense (no sense for me).
Maybe I should read my own blog posts more often, like this awesome one: 4 ways how to make the present moment your friend
Maybe I can just accept that I get angry from time to time.
Maybe it helps if I write about it.
Maybe it helps, if I share this with you.
Maybe if I write it all down, that's a form of therapy.
We'll keep in touch,
(feeling better already)